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Night blindness

26 Mar

One of the

hardest

steps to take,

are the ones towards

the search of

light,

when pitch black night has taken

residence

in your soul,

and the thought of sunshine

is

blinding your eyes.

Amnesia

25 Mar

It was when,

the idea of amnesia,

became both scary and

desirable,

that I knew it was real,

the love that I had,

and the heart break I had

suffered,

for while the later

tempted me

to forget,

the former made me hold on,

stronger,

to the memories

that I still wasn’t ready to

let go.

Counting my way to the next sunrise

15 Feb

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Some days start,
their end comes so smoothly,

Like the blink of an eye,
a smile on a sunny day,

Some mornings they begin,
you count till it is dark,

The lights dim out,
the way they have inside you,

and the seconds are years,
never ending, yet instantaneous when they end.

The year that was.

1 Jan
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Plans for 2017

I had planned to write down, in what I was sure would be a very long list, all that I had lost in 2016, all that I had suffered.

I’d planned to write it out before 2017 began and to then cut off my ties with it all.

But when I finally got down to the writing, I could not help but concentrate on the positives. Finding good in things that had seemed unbearable when I was living through them, finally coming to a point where I could embrace all the memories, even those marred by various factors, just by separating the negative from them and focusing on the good they had brought to me.

It is true indeed that when we look at our past we do so through a rosy filter, where everything feels prettier than it really was.

But this was different because one little realization changed my perspective on all that had happened to me in the year that was; I was being thankless for the wonderful things I had achieved and experienced this year because I was too busy concentrating on the little inconsequential things that no more deserved my worrying..

I got so much of what I had been praying for. Internships abroad, travelling on my own, living alone oceans away from my family and making the most out of it, surviving without needing any crutches with my loved ones in different time zones, making new friends, holding on tighter to older ones and getting rid of those who were bringing only negativity in my life. I got through into my final year of med-school, I made huge progress on the book I am writing, I sketched more, I partook in surgeries and I got a chance to work with amazing surgeons. And with all of that, I lived to make my moral code stronger.

Above all, though, I feel in the past few years I’d begun to lose touch with who I was and what I wanted to be. My goals had become blurred and I’d begun to lose the rational part of myself to the emotional one. And to sit here today, seeing everything so clearly-my goals, myself and where I want to go-I am thankful to whatever forces in the world were the cause that I found my way back to myself. I fear if I hadn’t now, I would always have been lost and hence the dissatisfaction I’d begun to think was a part of me would have been my companion for life.

2016 has taught me so many lessons, lessons that maybe came the hard way, but they are ones that I hope will make 2017 better and easier for me.

So, I bid adieu to 2016, a stronger person, with more dreams in my head but with a steadier tread.

For now though, I will go be infinitely cliché and write down that usual round of resolutions that I won’t ever get around to achieving. In the meanwhile, I would love to hear from you as to what you learned from 2016 and what your resolutions for 2017 are.

Until next time, ever yours,
Gull.

 

 

 

 

7 ways to style your checkered coats this winter

27 Dec
  1. Wear it as a dress. My rule is, if it is long enough and you can button it up, pair it with stockings and you are good to go. Honestly, give it a try. You will love it-especially thanks to the extra warmth you will get from this particular ‘dress’.

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    Wear it as a dress.

  2. Couple it with a fine mix of ‘polished’ and ‘laid back’. How? Pair it with a nice collared shirt but add some spunk via a chic sweater. For an extra dose of casual add some nice fitting boyfriend jeans. Note:-this can be an easy day to night look, exchange your flats for some heels. Add bright earrings. a red lippy and a nice clutch and you are good to go.

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    Mix and match.

  3. Twist things up by pulling it over a midi-skirt. Add a matching accessory (scarf, shoes, bag-any one of them) and you are sure to stand out. Note-try avoiding flats with midi-skirts, that is prone to make you look shorter and less pulled together.

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    Add a midi to it.

  4. Less is definitely more. And keeping it simple is the best way to go. Wear it with a sweater in a muted shade (the more over-sized it is, the better), your favorite skinnies and easy-to-walk in boots.Go with the latest style of laced up boots, again preferably in a muted tone unless you want to stand out in the crowd. Then your thigh-highs would work just as well.

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    Less is more.

  5. Not cold enough for jackets where you are? Do it like the bloggers do. Layer a light-weight sweater with a favorite shirt and let the coat act as an accessory on your shoulders. You can pull it on if the night gets too chilly but if it doesn’t, well you won’t be too warm. Personally I feel its best to wear your coat like this if you are wearing skinnies but if you are feeling bold, couple it with a mini for a hotter look.

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    Keep it simple.

  6. Add a pop of red. Nothing works better with a muted plaid, especially if it is in a shade of grey, than a little addition of something red. It can be via your bag, shoes or even your scarf, but if you keep everything else monochrome, the little bit of red will give both character and life to your outfit.

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    Pop of color

  7. Sunday chic.Going out for a Sunday brunch? Grab your comfiest boyfriend jeans, add that favorite tee from your college and pair it with a nice pair of flats, preferably ones with a boyish touch. Complete your look with your favorite plaid jacket. And go stuff up on that brunch while snapchat-ing your “weekend” look.

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    The laid back look.

Quote

Way forward

26 Dec
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-‘Aimee’

Words
To end this
Are as lost as
My will
To begin;
The oceans
I might have
Survived
But this river
Is
Another story;
Peace
Eludes me
Like a shy bride
Yet
I await
For it to take me
Into
Its arms.

How to let them go? 

8 Jan

Today I was talking to a friend, an old one, and somehow, the discussion got down to how we should take the end of relationships and the loss of people from our lives, and she asked me something that left me thinking. 

“If you had a friend, your best friend even, who was once a source of all things fun in your life, would you regret having met them and resent them? And would you try to hold on to them for those memories even though the present is no more the same or would you let them go, thankful for the past, hopeful for a better future?”

The answer to her question is both lengthy and complicated. But above all, it comes with too many variables to apply a common ‘solution’ for  all such people that we lose in our lives. 

But, if I’d to keep it concise, here is the conclusion we reached. 

The first question for the scenario is but obvious. Whoever the person under discussion is-friend, sibling or anyone else who was once important in your life but is no more an active part of it- did you enjoy the time you spent with them? Were you in those moments with them “infinite” or just ordinarily finite? 

If the answer is a yes, then that’s all that matters. For life is more about the perfect moments and the happy ones than who is here now and who was here yesterday. Maybe those who are leaving today could’ve proved to be toxic tomorrow, or cliché as it might be, maybe they are just making space for someone that would give you more joy. Fill you with more satisfaction. 

If the answer is a no, then you already know that there is no need to give any more thought to such people, such relationships. If it didn’t have a good past, there can be no hope for a much better future. What you can though hope for is to lose the need to be dependent on a few to make your life happier, putting on them a weight they are neither capable of carrying not worthy of being put to test for. 
Instead of fretting over inconsequential happenings, such as the comings and goings of people, be thankful to those who put a smile on your face yesterday and move on, without them if you have to, ready to meet new people to replace them. Search for more happiness rather than for more people, and you will come to see what and who really matters and who and what doesn’t. 

But the question still remains, for the sake of a great past, would you try to leech on to them in the present? 

The future is uncertain and unclear, and we as humans fear the unseen the most. And the idea of letting go of people who have become our constants makes it scarier. 

But does it? Doesn’t the idea of turning something great to something toxic just due to your inability to give in to change, scarier? Marring the memories of something good with the pain of a battle none can win-isn’t that worse? What use is there in holding on to people when they are no more willing to stay? What good can they bring to you? 

Life isn’t just short, it’s already running out on you. Rather than putting yourself through the misery of a lost fight, add to the width of your life with more people, more adventures more activities, more joy and more love and remove anything that leaves even a shadow of a shadow on your happiness. 

In short, the moral? 

Let them go. 

People who bring the shine to your life are worthy of fighting for, but if they are bent upon moving one without you, then letting them go is better for the ease of all parties involved. Any attempt at making it end otherwise will prove to be nothing but toxic. And you will regret making it worse than it was, regret the present and even the once-loved past. 

Stay safe and love yourself,

Gull

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